“Sow for yourselves righteousness;
reap steadfast love;
break up your fallow ground,
for it is the time to seek the Lord,
that he may come and rain righteousness upon you.”
Today I am tempted to complain about how my recent life has progressed. And even now, I am inclined to go into all the things that have been less than optimal. However, I find myself pondering the purpose behind this action. At the end of it all, what would me blundering with complaints really accomplish in the grand scheme of things?
And so based on this, today I want to talk about some of the blessings I have in my life. Because for real! I am SO INCREDIBLY lucky to be alive and breathing with four limbs that work and a heart that has never shown any signs of failing. I have an incredible family that CARES about me and I have a job that funds not only my living but my constantly changing passions.
Further, I have TWO college degrees. I’m not DIRECTLY using them at the moment [well… kind of…] but I have so many open doors that I can run through! I have a COLLECTION of friends who I know would be there for me on a moment’s notice, and I’m sitting in front of a $1,000 computer typing this message. I am blessed beyond reason!
I work as a photography, capturing images that prolong moments for ETERNITY! I live at a horse ranch, where I have the ability to ride almost whenever I want. I have enjoyed the UNIMAGINABLE joy that comes with drinking eggnog. And these past few weeks I’ve been visiting Auburn University where I spent four years of my life gaining the social skills I needed to propel me towards success.
Though every moment of my life isn’t exciting [thank goodness], I have climbed fire towers, jumped off cliffs, and been part of an award winning drumline. I have talked people out of suicide, motivated people towards persuing photography as a career, and hugged my mama.
I wake up every morning with the freedom to CHOOSE to go to work, and when I am done working for the day, I am paid the salary to choose to do with as I’d choose.
Yet… so often, despite all these advantages, I still find myself wanting more. And this baffles me! I am so blessed, and yet I struggle with the fact that my business, this thing that I’m trying to use for the GOOD OF OTHERS, isn’t growing as rapidly as I’d like it to.
NO! NO!!! NO!!!!! This business is not for me! I have talked before about the WHY behind my business and I’m still working on my exact mission statement, but at least for today, I am thankful that God has given me a little bit of a wake-up call. I am on this Earth doing what I do for the good of the people around me and for the glory of the God above me and nothing more. If my business dies tomorrow, then so be it! If I lose all my artistic ability, SO BE IT! I will find some other way to serve those around me. But my business is no master of me!
So thank you to everyone who has supported my business up to this point. Without your trust, I literally wouldn’t have anything to do. =P But I no longer need you to make me feel fulfilled. Me and Jesus are working on that one together.